Resolutions?

Once again it is time for new years resolutions. "It is May," you say "isn't that a little too late for resolutions. Well after lent and an Easter filled weekend, I am feeling forgiven and feeling the urge to try again to get things right. What this will look like is still beyond my ken, but I can see bits and pieces (boulders and mountains is more accurate) that need improving so we are going to try the old one step at a time theory.

One at a time I think too, if I commit only to one new discipline, I am only accountable for that one. If I happen to do a couple of other improvements along the way those won't be official ones so if I flub, no need for guilt and if they succeed well I will be that much farther along when they become official. This is a good ploy for the perfectionist, as guilt and self destructive tendencies are almost impossible to avoid. Even after years of setting aside those bad tapes, when you least expect it one will start running in your brain. This is a battle I was pretty sure I had won, so to be occasionally blindsided unnerves me a bit.

I was once hoping for a nice quiet week to begin the life makeover, but have decided this will never happen and the only way to move forward is to jump in amid the chaos. I have come to realize that it isn't going to slow down, and waiting is really just a delay tactic. Come on in the water's fine.